February 15, 2012
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| Album: Cadence Sampler* |
Today, Maggie, Emily, and I sat in my hot tub and began discussing our usual topic, the future. This put me in a philosophical mood tonight and I can't help but think about everything I have done thus far, and how small events have changed the course of my life. As cliche as it is to say that I would never have imagined myself to be the way I am five years ago, it's true; and I cannot wait to see what I will do in the next five years. For the last six months or so, I was in a state in which I was pessimistic and questioned everything/worried about how messed up society is/thought about how I cannot possibly do everything I want to do in this lifetime. Looking back, I can see how clouded my mind was with negativity, when I really should have siphoned my thoughts and tuned them towards being happy and grateful. I really do have the most amazing friends and family, better than I could ever even hope for, and they always support me in all my endeavors and never let me feel shitty about myself. With them in my life, it possibly cannot be bad. For those of you who are still in your teen angst/screw society phase of life, please end it sooner rather than later. By sitting around and thinking of why everything/everyone around you is messed up, you are wasting your time and falling into a deadly trap. At least attempt to change what you dislike, or wake up and realize that, yeah, we live in a not-so-perfect world, but you don't have to fit into society's norms. Do what you want to do, be who you want to be, and let the rest fall in place. People will appreciate your originality and will be encouraged to let their inner weirdo out as well. Oh god, that was pretty long, I guess it's just one of those nights. For those of you who are also having one of these nights, give this song a listen, it's captivating.
I really love this post!
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Aww thanks Sones! :)
DeleteI agree with your friend, it's inspiring :) I really need to reach my happy place too!
ReplyDeleteThank you so much! I wish you the best of luck finding it! Ice cream always helps haha :)
DeleteI must say that I really enjoy your blog. You do a really cool thing profiling a lot of music and tracks that many of us wouldn't have come across otherwise. A lot of the tracks that you feature are very ethereal and reminiscent of Nujabes (which is how I found this blog in the first place).
ReplyDeleteThis post particularly made me want to comment as it draws many similarities to my own experience. I was in the same situation where I was worrying and pondering if life was ever going to stop kicking me while I was down and I too realized what you realized. Sometimes I'm just sitting and thinking and I'm surprised at how comfortable I am in my own skin versus 5 years ago in high school. Sometimes when we think backwards we truly are astounded at how forward we have come. The hindsight of seeing yourself miles and miles behind is staggering, because you think to yourself "how did I get here?" and "what the hell was I doing back there?". I can see and feel the epiphany in your writing. Many of us have the same epiphany around the same age and it really unlocks a different world within your own doesn't it? I am just glad to have read this and you made my day in a way. Keep doodling in class and doot doola doot lo. Doo doodle.
This, tsongandance, has been one of my favorite comments so far, and you for sure made my day! :) Everything you said is exactly what I was trying to express--it might be hard connecting the dots for your future, but when you connect the dots into your past, it is extremely fascinating to see how you became the person you are today. I am so glad that you decided to comment, do you have a blog too? If you do, I'd love to follow it! And I will never stop doot doola doodling in class, that would be ludicrous.
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