February 15, 2012
|Album: Cadence Sampler*|
Today, Maggie, Emily, and I sat in my hot tub and began discussing our usual topic, the future. This put me in a philosophical mood tonight and I can't help but think about everything I have done thus far, and how small events have changed the course of my life. As cliche as it is to say that I would never have imagined myself to be the way I am five years ago, it's true; and I cannot wait to see what I will do in the next five years. For the last six months or so, I was in a state in which I was pessimistic and questioned everything/worried about how messed up society is/thought about how I cannot possibly do everything I want to do in this lifetime. Looking back, I can see how clouded my mind was with negativity, when I really should have siphoned my thoughts and tuned them towards being happy and grateful. I really do have the most amazing friends and family, better than I could ever even hope for, and they always support me in all my endeavors and never let me feel shitty about myself. With them in my life, it possibly cannot be bad. For those of you who are still in your teen angst/screw society phase of life, please end it sooner rather than later. By sitting around and thinking of why everything/everyone around you is messed up, you are wasting your time and falling into a deadly trap. At least attempt to change what you dislike, or wake up and realize that, yeah, we live in a not-so-perfect world, but you don't have to fit into society's norms. Do what you want to do, be who you want to be, and let the rest fall in place. People will appreciate your originality and will be encouraged to let their inner weirdo out as well. Oh god, that was pretty long, I guess it's just one of those nights. For those of you who are also having one of these nights, give this song a listen, it's captivating.